Monday, August 6, 2012

Sometimes Life Is Hard

So you may have been wondering where the heck I've been...okay maybe not. I have been debating on what to put in this post, whether or not to even write this post. But let's be honest, I've never been one to keep things in for too long and I have always found the support of my friends and family to be an extreme comfort. 
So, I was pregnant. I had a miscarriage 4 weeks ago. Man o man were we excited to be pregnant, but I guess the timing wasn't right. At first I was sick during the pregnancy and super tired. But then about 8 weeks in I started feeling a lot better and I thought I was just lucky. We went in for the first ultrasound  at 10 weeks and were told the bad news. I had a D and C two days after that. Honestly, there hasn't been a day since then that I haven't cried. Trent has been pretty broken-hearted over it too.  We are both just disappointed and sad, like I said, we were really excited about being pregnant.
The timing of it all wasn't exactly fun either. It was right before finals and it wasn't like I could just stop doing school work. I was about to graduate so I had to finish. I also had to keep working although my work was so amazingly understanding and supportive of everything.
Bottom line, this sucked. But here are some things I've learned:

Heavenly Father will always take care of you, even if you don't understand what is happening.
The Lord's timing is better than your timing.
When you have a miscarriage you go through all the stages of grief.
Women everywhere have had miscarriages and there is a bond between you that offers support. These women will cry with you because the pain is still real 30 years down the road.
Pregnancy changes you. I was in total mommy mode, you don't just snap out of that.
Diet Coke is oh so delicious after almost 3 months.
I would rather be pregnant than drink Diet Coke.

So now the waiting begins. If we could start trying again to be pregnant right now, we would. But my stupid body takes forever to do anything. So we are waiting for things to get back to normal and then we will get back on the, er, horse?

In the meantime, I have a move to Hawaii to plan!

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Das Wassup

Trent and I have a little bit of a crazy life right now! I am taking a homework break and figured, "hey, why not check out that ol' blog of mine?" It was weird, I wanted to. 
This semester is all about trying to get sleep, while staying on top of things, whilst trying to not look homeless everyday. It's also all about trying to not cry everyday because Trent and I don't get to see each other very much. We've never had to be apart very much and now we're total wimps about it. I also have been volunteering in the laundry room at the temple once a week and you know what I discovered? You can feel the Spirit while folding towels.
Yesterday, while at work I heard someone mention, graduation... I GOT SO EXCITED! I felt butterfly's! Just 3 short months and we're there! We have no idea where we're going after or what we're doing, but the important thing is, we will have our dang degree's! 
I feel like I'm doing some cool things this semester. I have always tried to take classes that are interesting or teach me to do something I don't know how to do. (Hence gardening, sewing cooking, etc...) I've never been good at taking photo's so this semester I'm taking digital imaging. I am learning so many cool things about Photoshop and how to take a better picture. Here are some recent photos...

Friday, April 20, 2012

Aint Nuthin but a Gangster Party...

Most of you have probably seen this, but some of my family hasn't. Our friend Kate took some family photos recently and we showed her this picture to recreate. We thought it was hilarious and undeniably classy. It shall hang in our house forever.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

"Lots of people take 7 years to finish college"

"Yeah, they're called doctors."
Rexburg Temple last night...
I got so lazy over this winter. I forgot what its like to be busy! I'm super happy to be almost done with school and see what happens next.
Tuesday was the first day of school and then yesterday was the longest day ever.
7 - wake up
8 - work
12:45 - class
2 - work
5:15 - temple
9 - grocery shopping
10 - homework
12 - bed
I am kind of excited for some of my classes. I have a digital imaging class that will make my pictures not suck and also requires me to post photos twice a week onto a photo blog. So while I might be M.I.A for a bit here, you can check out my weekly photos, here. (I haven't changed my name at the school yet, hence, McKenzie Shelley.)

Tuesday, April 3, 2012



It was kinda funny, she called me and I had to call her back, so when she answered she said, "Hey Kenz" in a strained voice. She was in the middle of a contraction. I thought it was hilarious that she answered, so I asked if she wanted to call me back later. She said, "well I love you and I wanted to talke to you!" Then she had a baby. (Not with me on the line..hehe) So after 4 boys she finally had her little Eva Jane Haslam. And she is gorgeous.

Speaking of sisters, Trent and I went to Boise last weekend to see my oldest sister, Cristi! I hadn't seen her family in a while and the kids had grown like crazy! Not to mention Cristi went gluten free and looks absolutely amazing now. Anyway, last time we saw them, her daughter Hannah fell in love with Trent. We thought after a couple years it would have subsided, but NOPE! Here are some great Hannah quotes from the trip.
"My Trenty-bear"

"You married the right guy, he is just so snuggly!!"

"Trent, will you hold me?"
"He is just like a teddy bear!"

"He is just so snuggly I'm gonna die!"

(After Trent picked and gave her a flower) "SNIFF...**sigh**"

James! Amazing big brother...

Little Miss Leah

The Lovebirds

Sick/Snuggly Leah

Funny Rachel!

Thursday, March 29, 2012

What kind of bear is best? Wrong. Black Bear.

What do you do with your winnings at The Craze?

Get a lovely mustache of course.

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Closet Space

Early in January I cleaned my closet. Big news, I know. But check out how good it looks!

I still want to get even better but this really helped. I followed the basic, "have I worn/used this in the past year?" rule and chucked everything that I hadn't. It was really hard because my inner pack rat was like, (insert Gollum voice,) "nooo you must saves the precious!" Just call me Frodo because I dominated that closet. 

I also threw away anything that looked super dingy that I couldn't fix up. A certain pair of blue heels got a fresh coat of navy blue nail polish on the heel part, to cover scuff marks, and my skirts got hemmed. I also organized between things I can wear to work/church and my chillaxin clothes. And I may have gone nuts and organized my work things by material...and color.... It was quite the ordeal but now it is beautiful.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Ready Freddy

I'm catching up on some recent happenings and random things that I have been wanting to share. I swear I hibernate in the Winter, only when Spring pokes out its rosy cheeks do I think about being social again. But these next pics are taking us back to Christmas! I totally forgot about them but I thought they were funny.

I give you: The World's Most Awkward Christmas Card
(sent to my office)

If you know where I work then you know why this was especially awkward! But hey, congrats to the two crazy kids!  ....right?

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Juliet's 2nd Birthday

Juliet has grown up so much! She has the cutest little personality and the cutest little sister, Cece. Amy threw a rainbow themed party and I love Juliet's little rainbow tutu. (P.S. I got to design the invite!)

Check out that 'tude!

Monday, February 27, 2012

I have always wanted to try this...

And then I did. (So did Amy, cause she's brave and can be talked into anything!)

Sunday, February 26, 2012


I went to California and it was SO awesome!!
Me and Amy stayed with some of her friends who were so nice to us!
We walked around Michael and Kelsey's town of Orange, went to Disneyland, hiked, went to the beach, met up with my brother, had a bonfire at the beach, skated around a park, rode my skateboard down a slide, and seriously enjoyed the gorgeous weather!

Not only do I love California and warm weather, I loved hanging out with Amy in some straight up seriously needed girl-time! AND I now can cross off number 9 on my resolutions list: Go to the Ocean! And even though I was the only one on the beach to go in the water, I didn't care! It was pretty cold but not Idaho cold so it's all good! I also got to meet my neice, Dahlia. She is just super cute and such a smart little baby. She was wary of me at first but then she warmed up when we played in the waves. She even let me hold her by the bonfire!

Are ya ready for pictures?!?